pre mothers day thought

last night i went to a new shop, a new girl to have my hair colored.  She came highly recommended by a most wonderful woman!  my daughter!
she is not easy to get to almost 30 minutes away from my office but she was so worth it! she is very good at what she does and kind and oh such cute personality.  loved her!

thru the random conversations that you have with someone you want to get to know as they section out your hair and pile the goo on these words came from her mouth...
"you have some very good people in your life"
those words made me stop and catch my breath because it has been such an incredibly hard week at work because of some very different words said in an entirely different tone.

One woman ruined my very excited mental state in a burst of frustration and another filled my cup to the rim with the words about people she only heard a few words about.  isnt that amazing the power of spoken words.  (and one is paying me and the other i am paying! i realize that LOL)

but that is what i took from the evening...GREAT fabulous hair and the resolve to let my cup be full again because this weekend my house will be full again. bursting with the babies that have grown in to such wonderful adults.  they dont know it but every time they are around they build my heart and mind (perhaps only fair after all the times they tested, pushed and broke my heart and mind)

When they are all around life is good and safe and oh so enjoyable because they each have such different ways of taking on their own lives.  it adds such dimensions to my own.  It creates such an current of possibilities to hear them all sharing their lives with each other.  They dont even realize it but their eyes are so wide and attentive, their body language is very positive and open and relaxed.  Perhaps the chemistry of all families works this way but I love to watch it in my own.

So to the lady that ruined my week...i must move on now.... to the lady that awoke me from my troubled heart i say Thank you!! and may you have an extraordinary week yourself!

connect the dots or brain storming?

some call it train of thoughts ... but some songs i hear just do that..that start the train...
a head line on yahoo news (who would honestly call anything yahoo)
 "10 things you should never say to your children"
I didnt read the article but it started the train....
bet they all revolve around esteem and shit
our mothers didnt have that crap telling them what to do all day every day
sure some of them went way wrong but most did alright
wonder if anything about hard work and effort and failure were talked about....
thankfully the phone rings...(i am at work after all)

today was a day that was so quiet in the office that it was spooky! no managers, only admin and I think I was the only one that wanted to put the loud speaker on the local baseball game so we could all hear the team......lose! man glad we didnt do that that wouldve ruined the day!

then in the car late in the day...this came on and stirred emotions, and smells and smiles from when i was 12 or 13 Tiny Dancer....

i was chubby,
 we just got told we could wear nice "pantsuits" to school.
the spindle bed that is in the garage was in my room
i had a small radio that got the "new fm" station wkda-fm ( Then Clark Rogers came along in 72 or 73 and began programing cool tune again after midnight. No top 40 stuff. Rogers played album cuts again of the Stones, Led Zeppelin, Jefferson Airplane and the great bands.)

Momma was in the kitchen, tired, cooking dinner
often my sister and her 3 kids were there like most of the time
we rented a 3 bedroom house and first one i ever remembered living in
my dad was coming around drunk alot
we lived very near the "boulevard"
"Jesus Freaks" were not my kind at all but i knew what they were
tiny... wish i was .... could i ever be
could i runaway with a band and be their seamstress and fall in love with the lead singer and be beautiful and wild and totally safe but living the totally rebellious life!

that is when i totally fell in love with this song and the singer... and then his denim album cover

found some of my funny

thursday and friday of last week i noticed my ability to make myself laugh had disappeared!  it was so starting to bother me that i had to call my sister (only one that can make me laugh when NOTHING else can)  told her the bad news...
she replied "poor baby...I will call you later"  well never heard from her!

the enternal suffering continued thru the weekend.  I would find myself getting very bitter because my life sucks if i cant laugh at it.  So many jokes told to myself, so many times made such a shitty day so much better....
instead i found myself talking randomly and constant to those around me.  sometime reminiscing like some old fool.  made myself cry thinking about the next kid that will leave for faraway lands (chicago --> atlanta is far yall)

really miserable with mr einstein (cause he always lightens my moods you know)

well it came back to day while i was outside on my new deck--- surrounded by windows with out glass, and shutters bolted together as a wall to avoid direct neighborly gawking!

and the 'rock n' roll star came out.  He is married, has since cut his hair and builds things like herb gardens from kits at home depot (we cant all have my son in law in the house!!)
and buys wood chips and little tykes stuff (sandboxes and picnic tables)
He is trying so hard to fit into suburbia~~ that it makes me laugh!! and that is all it took.

This character is all made up in my head, his stories are all made up in my head.  I have no idea what his real life is like ~ probably as boring as the rest of ours!  But when they first moved in they were young (late 20s early 30s)  He had wild curly shoulder length hair  - she is still a very attractive blonde but i have nothing to add to that~~ B*O*R*I*N*G

I like the made up neighbor stories and i hope someone is doing a few for my house as well.

he so obviously loves his wife and kids but misses the occasional jam session-- i have seen him twitch when we have our radio up a little loud some times i turn it up louder just to see if it will send him over the edge--
my Einstein  doesnt get it...i think he is a tad jealous of my made up friendship--he keeps wanting me to admit he is an accountant some where "only if his wife insisted that he work for her dad so they can live here"
ok how about an astronaut, "bla no never-- way to conservative"  I want a rebel living  behind me! yeaaaa
will keep you posted on the rockin roller--- he is out taking photos of his twins, he just loves his family...no matter what he does to make money~~~

didnt like that first post anyway

shezz had a post, but the internet gods said no!

so i will show you - Detox salad with a honey lime vinaigrette dressing. oh so ummy! lots of lemon water with a splash of tea for some flavor
(we wont tell you how the entire bag of double stuffed Oreo disappeared as well!)

My einstein started redoing the bathroom ceiling oh about 2 months ago...after "thinking about how to do it" for oh at least one year...  and apparently it didnt work.  That is wood glue on the ceiling that was in fine condition 2 months ago (it does look like baby poo but it is glue : - )
This morning i had to make it thru a maze of 2x4's that are holding the new ceiling in place (oh gods of do it yourself please help him)

meanwhile the ceiling that needs fixing is  ummmm untouched and maybe that is better-- i will hire some one to fix it while we are work and it will be like an elf has been here!

Meanwhile--some wonderful son in law built a deck for me!!  of course he had some FABULOUS help!!  these 2 are a fun couple to be around

and last but not least.... Alisa Burke was there to encourage my hand in the art--- now dont be disappointed, it took alot to do that!  will stir this pot a bit more this week!

saturday morning magic

these mornings have a routine all their own to be sure.  they are very quiet, and i am very alone. (seem to be the only one that cant sleep past 7:30 am around here)
but they are very much like my jewels though.  and I treasure them.

• get my coffee 
• ignore the cats a bit longer
• grab my laptop
• note pad, and pen
• and imagine what if i could get it all done today 
• grocery, cook, clean, create, renew a room, decorate to bring on simplicity in life style

Here before the day unfolds there are so many possibilities; yes this will be the time where i find all the right stuff, stir my own creative juices and show the world... i am orderly planner, artist with food, paint, home making, food and even with lists!! and find the time to get everything done!
exercise, cook, shop, even host a dinner....but certainly be better prepared for the coming week~
did i forget laundry! whoops and do the laundry AND put it away...
stay tuned to see what actually becomes of the day and its magic!

artist in metamorphosis

you know the itchy, frustrated feeling of thinking the idea is great and all you need to do is get it down on paper- and then you get the paper and pencil together the move so nicely along but then there is a screeching halt! a road block and AHHHH!

flip thru inspiration, wonder if you will ever make the time to listen to and watch the videos so that i can learn more. I paid for them because i really want to learn but then ....home i sit with einstein and watch tv and doodle the same old doodles  nothing new or fresh....

then creeping around on fB i found an old "friend" and she looks so like better than she did 40 years ago that i havent sent her a friend request.  but maybe i should tho so i can meet her plastic dr! cuz he is good!

several reasons

several reasons come to mind when i think of why i wish my kids stayed in town and loved marietta and me and never want to go any where else....ok i dont REALLY want them to be that way but....

one little girl (of 19) on her way to visit her bff 4 hours south of her college town has a blow out!! and thank all powers that are and were because other than freezing in fear she was not hurt! got her tire fixed and now on her merry way again (both of us feeling the truth of our venerability!)

Meanwhile another is on the other side of the country touring the wine country and preparing to celebrate his 30th with NO family around!

Thank all GODS for cell phones, that are cameras, and for google maps and safe journeys