kohl rabi ahhh what is that?

dont get me wrong - i love mondays that fall on tuesday - but tuesdays are happy days cause they are not monday! any day is happy to not be monday but look now they ask tuesday to cover for monday! HATE THAT and then no day after that feels right!

farmers market in my not so little town square had a family farm there that sold me this strange little veggie--  the husband was very nice and said his wife had put some recipies up to try with this :

Kohl Rabi 

one of the many reasons i like the farmers market is i get to meet and learn  

took this funny little guy home, and found the recipes.  I chose to go with the roasting it and threw i n some freshly bought squash and seasonings covered with aluminum and roast similarly as i would a potato

It was alot of fun to show before and after to the family and then have them taste it.  some said it was like a Brussels sprout but different.  one thought it like a turnip but not as bitter and one thought it was like a potato but not!  So we may not have enough tastes or vocabulary to make this one as appealing but it did bring great smiles:

and after all the stress i have felt over this 3 day weekend let me say HOORAY!!!

monday day 1 of diet with ediets--

here we go! it wont be easy and i hate that- but i hate the way i feel about myself more-
Starting here at 150- yep 150! no muscle at all

weight loss simulator shows what 120 is gonna look like

bust:39
waist 34
hips 41

lets take a minute and review why i am unhappy-
first emotional battle field with myself and it spills over into influencing my interaction with others in a negative way or in a very self humiliating way
nothing fits right even my stretchy jeans!
activity level is low to nothing and i have little to know energy most of the day.

So give my self a 3 week routine explosion!
Joined ediets which helped me alot so many years ago (I like being on a team no matter what)
spend 3 days looking at menus, recipes, "challenges" and have chosen the

• Low glycemic impact diet  ("Our Glycemic Impact meal plan has the right nutritional balance to help you maintain blood sugar levels, avoid hunger and stay energetic all day while losing weight. You'll enjoy the perfect combination of complex carbohydrates, lean protein and healthy fats, making this a plan you can follow for life!")
• 1200-1300 calories (pretty sure it will be closer to the 1300-1400 with amount of exercise)
• 74oz of water a day PERIOD
• signed up to play "life's Odyssey" and chart it all for 3 weeks to earn point for my team! 

long weekends are ...

stressful is probably not the first word that comes to mind when you realize that there is a 3 day weekend looming in front of you...unless you are more like me than not~

what will i do that is fun, will make me laugh, fulfill me, make it memorable....what am i going to think of to do that is fun for all but not "work" for me.  how will i entice others to come spend time with me and not be sad that all my kids are not home and eager to chill around me....how can i get excited about dong "house work" that bugs me daily but now i have time to do and dont really want to!

well it starts with an argument on Thursday evening so you go to bed at 8:30pm-- which was badly needed but.... then you wake very early and pack a bag to run away just incase this is the time you are really going to run. THEN you go to the office before 7;00am - that you really dont like, sit in a cubicle and hope you dont piss off your yankee bitch of a boss....then it is 4:30 and you leave...

Start the weekend at the usual mexican restaurant with at least one of my favorite kids and her husband--then off to a free local "square event"  this was very nice!  beer, older people than me there to enjoy the sounds of the "big band" group.  Wish i had gotten a picture with the first friend i made here, he was looking for a seat and i was hogging the only bench near the music gazebo.  He was tall, friendly eyes, blonde with a healthy dose of sun color on his face, beautiful shade of orange sherbert shorts on, and he was early to mid 70's.  he had spent a lifetime in the same town that i have called home for over 25 years. (guess that is a life time too)  finally met his wife - nice old couple that was very real - she complained she couldnt hear from where we were sitting and he told her to "just turn up your hearing aide!"  lol!

love my not so little town

my take on life and married life in particular is becoming more simple (at least in my own head) do what you enjoy and enjoy what you do or dont do it! not many years left healthy and free to do--
soon one of us will not be well and the other will be sad and struggle daily with the other's distress until one of us dies and the other is going to be so sad and wonder why we didnt do more that we enjoyed.  till then well we are pretty easy to entertain!

I personally hate our house-- it is a good house for someone but not me- i want to embrace my inner hippie ( and no that doesnt mean be stoned all the time just some times) and find a small 3 bedroom 2 bath house, hire a yard person- or be rid of the yard- hang things from the trees. lots of funny little things- make strange sculpture and put it in the front yard maybe paint my house a funny color--- I want this--gypsy wagon

but for now i guess i will just go turn my shorts outside right- been wearing them inside out while posting and just realized it! LOL!! now that is entertaining!!
next post.... more pics less bitching---maybe  (

pre mothers day thought

last night i went to a new shop, a new girl to have my hair colored.  She came highly recommended by a most wonderful woman!  my daughter!
she is not easy to get to almost 30 minutes away from my office but she was so worth it! she is very good at what she does and kind and oh such cute personality.  loved her!

thru the random conversations that you have with someone you want to get to know as they section out your hair and pile the goo on these words came from her mouth...
"you have some very good people in your life"
those words made me stop and catch my breath because it has been such an incredibly hard week at work because of some very different words said in an entirely different tone.

One woman ruined my very excited mental state in a burst of frustration and another filled my cup to the rim with the words about people she only heard a few words about.  isnt that amazing the power of spoken words.  (and one is paying me and the other i am paying! i realize that LOL)

but that is what i took from the evening...GREAT fabulous hair and the resolve to let my cup be full again because this weekend my house will be full again. bursting with the babies that have grown in to such wonderful adults.  they dont know it but every time they are around they build my heart and mind (perhaps only fair after all the times they tested, pushed and broke my heart and mind)

When they are all around life is good and safe and oh so enjoyable because they each have such different ways of taking on their own lives.  it adds such dimensions to my own.  It creates such an current of possibilities to hear them all sharing their lives with each other.  They dont even realize it but their eyes are so wide and attentive, their body language is very positive and open and relaxed.  Perhaps the chemistry of all families works this way but I love to watch it in my own.

So to the lady that ruined my week...i must move on now.... to the lady that awoke me from my troubled heart i say Thank you!! and may you have an extraordinary week yourself!

connect the dots or brain storming?

some call it train of thoughts ... but some songs i hear just do that..that start the train...
a head line on yahoo news (who would honestly call anything yahoo)
 "10 things you should never say to your children"
I didnt read the article but it started the train....
bet they all revolve around esteem and shit
our mothers didnt have that crap telling them what to do all day every day
sure some of them went way wrong but most did alright
wonder if anything about hard work and effort and failure were talked about....
thankfully the phone rings...(i am at work after all)

today was a day that was so quiet in the office that it was spooky! no managers, only admin and I think I was the only one that wanted to put the loud speaker on the local baseball game so we could all hear the team......lose! man glad we didnt do that that wouldve ruined the day!

then in the car late in the day...this came on and stirred emotions, and smells and smiles from when i was 12 or 13 Tiny Dancer....

i was chubby,
 we just got told we could wear nice "pantsuits" to school.
the spindle bed that is in the garage was in my room
i had a small radio that got the "new fm" station wkda-fm ( Then Clark Rogers came along in 72 or 73 and began programing cool tune again after midnight. No top 40 stuff. Rogers played album cuts again of the Stones, Led Zeppelin, Jefferson Airplane and the great bands.)

Momma was in the kitchen, tired, cooking dinner
often my sister and her 3 kids were there like most of the time
we rented a 3 bedroom house and first one i ever remembered living in
my dad was coming around drunk alot
we lived very near the "boulevard"
"Jesus Freaks" were not my kind at all but i knew what they were
tiny... wish i was .... could i ever be
could i runaway with a band and be their seamstress and fall in love with the lead singer and be beautiful and wild and totally safe but living the totally rebellious life!

that is when i totally fell in love with this song and the singer... and then his denim album cover